Hemophilia, by gldn

Hemophilia

by gldn

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1.	Animal 03:20	lyrics	buy track
I am everything about yourself that you try to hide I am your filth, your rape, your sin I am everything you made me Why? Why me? Why am I so lonely? I’m an animal I’m a sexual pervert, an animal I’m a living abortion, an animal I’m nobody’s hero, an animal I’m your next door neighbor Everybody hates me Why? Why am I so ugly? I’m an animal I’m a sexual pervert, an animal I’m a living abortion, an animal I’m nobody’s hero, an animal I’m your next door neighbor Everybody scorns me My man, he doesn’t know me I’m an animal I’m an animal I’m an animal I’m an animal I’m your next door neighbor Everybody shuns me Why am I so dirty? I dream of naked ladies leaping over me I like peeping through holes in public lavatories Domineering men in thigh-high boots Tying me up, whipping me Somebody help me I’ve lost my sanity I’m an animal I’m a sexual pervert, an animal I’m a living abortion, an animal I’m nobody’s hero, an animal I’m your next door neighbor No sex for me You, you made me You scorned my body You degraded me You twisted my mind Yes, you, you made me unkind You fed on my cravings You persecuted me I’m an animal I’m an animal I’m an animal I’m an animal You don’t understand You fucking faggots
2.	New Face, Same Lies 04:20	lyrics	buy track
No one can save you now I’ve been dreaming of angels Bathing in the blood of your savior I feel your rotting hands around my throat Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Flesh turns to ashes on my tongue Your blood’s a cancer in me Another flower in the mud No way to get free Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face Such a pretty face Such a pretty face Such a pretty face Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie Such a pretty face You’re just another lie
3.	#1 Crush 03:45	lyrics	buy track
I would die for you I would die for you I’ve been dying just to feel you by my side To know that you’re mine I will cry for you I will cry for you I will wash away your pain with all my tears And drown your fears I will pray for you I will pray for you I will sell my soul for something pure and true Someone like you See your face every place that I walk in Hear your voice every time that I’m talking You will believe in me And I will never be ignored I will burn for you Feel pain for you I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart I’ll tear it apart I will lie for you I can steal for you I will crawl on hands and knees until you see You’re just like me Violate all my love that I’m missing Throw away all this pain that I’m living You will believe in me And I will never be ignored I would die for you I would kill for you I would steal for you I’d do time for you I will wait for you I’d make room for you I’d sail ships for you To be close to you To be part of you Cause I believe in you I believe in you I would die for you
4.	Half-Life 05:08	lyrics	buy track
I think we’re past that now Got a date with a dark fate Never hesitate Shallow as a last breath Prison rape, violate You hearing what they say? They wanna take away Now the pressure is building You can’t make the feeling stay This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place I’m not broken Don’t try to fix me I’m not broken Don’t try to fix me How’d I get so fucking high? How’d I get so fucking high? Fragile little bitch, got the itch Time to to spiral again Sew it up, rip the stitch There’s no time to pretend Bitter, quitter, killer Pain distiller Mind frame never tame Pills are just your babysitter I’m not broken Don’t try to fix me I’m not broken Don’t try to fix me How’d I get so fucking high? How’d I get so fucking high? This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place This must be the place
5.	Six Feet Under 03:29	lyrics	buy track
Tell me how it feels When you open your mouth And lies come spilling out Silver-tongued You’ve got everyone Caught up in the web that you’ve spun Knee deep in your own shit Getting deeper every day Oo, it’s so fucking brave How you’re digging your own grave How many times will you cross the line Why would I let you take what’s mine Nothing to lose and everything to prove Can’t get caught if you’re always on the move Think it’s time that I give you a taste So get over here and let me open up that pretty face Oo, it’s so fucking brave How you’re digging your own grave Deeper And deeper And deeper Deeper And deeper And deeper Oo, it’s so fucking brave How you’re digging your own grave Oo, it’s so fucking brave (It’s so fucking brave) How you’re digging your own grave
6.	Pull It 02:36	lyrics	buy track
I’m gonna tear you apart I will devour your blackened heart I will drown you in my pain ‘Til you beg to pull the trigger and take it all away Pull the trigger and take it all away Pull the trigger and take it all away
7.	Dirty, Rotten, Decayed 03:47	lyrics	buy track
Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Ripe Ripe Ripe Ripe Ripe Ripe Ripe Ripe Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit Selling me the same old shit
8.	Suicide Machine 03:11	lyrics	buy track
Media distortion, better than reality So caught up in our own vanity See your self-worth reflected on the screen Falling in love with the suicide machine Suicide machine Tell me what to believe Suicide machine Anything to be seen Suicide machine Tell me what to believe Suicide machine I’d rather be dead than be irrelevant Got no flaws, no imperfections The unachievable is my new obsession Can’t get enough, I’m never satisfied I’ve got to whore myself out just to feel alive Suicide machine Tell me what to believe Suicide machine Anything to be seen Suicide machine Tell me what to believe Suicide machine I’d rather be dead than be irrelevant If I can’t have you If I can’t have you If I can’t have you Suicide machine If I can’t have you (I’d rather be dead) If I can’t have you (I’d rather be dead) If I can’t have you (I’d rather be dead) Suicide machine Rather be dead Rather be dead I’d rather be dead Rather be dead Rather be dead (Suicide machine) Rather be dead (Suicide machine) I’d rather be dead (Suicide machine) I’d rather be dead Suicide machine Suicide machine
9.	Self-Mutilation As a Form of Compliance 03:31	lyrics	buy track
You want hate, so be it Keep your sympathy, I don’t need it You want silence, I want violence You don’t deserve my compliance
10.	Parasiticide 01:40	lyrics	buy track
You don’t deserve my compliance You don’t deserve my compliance You’re so fucking pathetic Fucking pathetic You’re so fucking pathetic You don’t deserve my compliance You’re so fucking pathetic Fucking pathetic You’re so fucking pathetic You don’t deserve my compliance Fucking pathetic You’re so fucking pathetic Fucking pathetic You’re so fucking pathetic Fucking pathetic You’re so fucking pathetic Fucking pathetic You’re so fucking pathetic
11.	Metamorphosis 04:55	lyrics	buy track
I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect I’m just an insect
12.	Parasite (Video Mix) [Bonus Track] 03:35	lyrics
Thought we reached the bottom But you always find new lows to sink to This apathy is just a symptom Of the madness it takes for me to love you Feeding on the trauma You need my hands tied just to feel alive In your teenage melodrama We go to sleep every night on a bed made of knives I won’t let you take me down If you wanna burn, you can burn alone You must have lost your goddamned mind If you think I’d let you fuck with me this time You want hate, so be it Keep your sympathy, I don’t need it You want silence, I want violence You don’t deserve my compliance I won’t let you take me down If you wanna burn, you can burn alone You must have lost your goddamned mind If you think I’d let you fuck with me this time You’re so jaded, you’re so faded You’re so fucking pathetic You say you want love But you know you’ll never get it This tomb wasn’t built for two But there’s still plenty of room for your lies to die with you You want hate, so be it Keep your sympathy, I don’t need it You want silence, I want violence You don’t deserve my compliance Don’t fucking touch me Breathing it in, I’m drowning in sin So kiss all the kindness goodbye You can say what you like, I’ve shut out the light I’m inviting the darkness inside In this cycle of pain, I’m in love with my shame Broken pieces, they no longer cut Don’t pretend that you know who I am anymore Cause he’s not the man I ever was Find a way to kill the pain Numb myself to everything you say But the past, it leaves a stain All the lies I’ve lived, I’ve lived in vain

about

Hemophilia, while primarily a remix album, is a project that came about because I felt as though I was not finished with First Blood. It features dark, atmospheric remixes of the songs from the First Blood EP, as well as several covers and original songs created specifically for this album.

I feel that Hemophilia continues the story of the EP, further exploring themes of self-destruction and rebirth, taking them to new extremes.

In the end, it's an album about the realization of one's own insignificance and what that means for a person in terms of freedom - the freedom to live, die, or rise and take control of your fate.